Windstorm, Rainy Days, and a joke to make you smile

So last night after karate, we went to Iceburg to meet some friends for ice cream and to let the boys get some energy out mid week! WHAT A BLAST! The boys ran around chasing an unsuspecting little girl who mind you, was a stranger, all around the place. They had these looks like, "ooh" she's cute, she took off running and the chase was on. First Cam, then Tristan followed suit. So funny. After finally getting our long awaited food and shakes, we laughed and talked, and got to know each other better-love getting to know these guys. THANKS to you both! Well, all of a sudden, if you live in Utah you know that the weather can change from summer to winter in 0-60, we had a massive tornado type wind gush through, ranch dressing oozed down my front, wrappers and cups went flying, we all jumped to gather the garbage, I cleaned as much of the ranch off my shirt as I could while getting pelted by dust and other flying debri and we ran to our cars for safety. CRAZY WIND STORM! But it was fun to get together anyway...

This morning we woke up to a cool rainy morning. Rainy days totally get me down it's dark and dreary. I am a girl that loves me some sun! :) Hopefully it'll be back for our weekend retreat! :)

Well, here is a joke to help bring a smile to your face, and maybe a little sun on this rainy day. Have a good day...

Why can't lesbians diet and wear make-up at the same time?

Wait for it...


Because they can't eat Jenny Craig with Mary Kay on their face.

HA HA HA
K...TTFN

Great thursday night...

So last night was spent on a family night! With me working so many extra hours, and with Tristan's karate schedule, and with just juggling life, we have found that we have to actually make time for family time! So we did that last night. As soon as I got off work yesterday I went and picked up Treec and Trist and we went downtown to the Gateway. We picked up Speed Racer tickets as it was our only option for that theatre with Tristan being there...(sorry Sum, Mer, and Cam...we'll have to go to another movie with you guys, there are many many movies coming this summer!!!) and then we ventured out to find a good place to eat. We have tried many of the restraunts at the Gateway and have been pretty impressed so far, so when we found Tucanos (a Brazillian Grill) we didn't hesitate to try it out. Let me just say, I was impressed...and I am a picky eater...so that is good! We had a good time keeping an eye out for the skewers of meat coming around to decide "Red" we don't want that or "Green" we do want that! Tristan had a blast messing with the Skewer guys...plus he ate free! Gotta love that, since it's all you can eat and Brazillian food! :) After the movie, which Tristan totally loved, we went to HagenDaz for some ice cream and then headed home to get ready for bed. What a great night out! :)

I am now at work, friday night, a Jazz game on - friends that invited us to come watch it (who we haven't seen in forever and really miss seeing), and I am stuck in a video game store, helping the non-exhistant customers because they are all at home watching the game! :) OH WELL.

Just wanted to to say hi and remind myself that when I take time for the important things in life, the other things tend to fade to the back and keep me in perspective!

Can't wait for Memorial Day weekend...i'm taking Treec on an adult getaway, that we desperately need! Shhh though, it's a surprise! :)

TTFN

New outlook...

Just wanted to take a minute and say, through baby steps with myself, my family, my girlfriend, my friends, and all the rest of you that don't fit into any particular titled category...I am happy to say that I am getting on! It may take a minute to get myself back into a space that feels safe, secure, and comfortable. But I am workin on it! And that is todays accomplishment!

Wanted to wish like Jackson a happy b-day. And congratulate my nephew Timmy for his amazing PT scores and his upcoming new tour of duty to Washington state. I may just get to go up and see him in Aug, killing two birds with one stone while I go up and enjoy the wedding of one of the greatest men I have ever known...my prom date! :) I know, I know that sounded funny... :0) Makes me laugh myself.

Anyhoo...hope your days are filled with love and happiness.

TTFN

I am so pissed off right now!

What a better time to blog then when your so pissed off that you must get it all out and then maybe just maybe you can take a deep breath and see some clarity through the chaos of the explosion! Tonight was game 4 (one of which was rained out) of our women's softball league. This week we were required to have our uniforms, and even though it was a little on the cool side, sweatshirts over the top of the jerseys was totally acceptable. Well, I have one player on my team to give you a bit of a recap, that has an abrasive side, we'll call her B. She is a great person, and a great player, but has a tendency to get over the top competative and there have been times that she has hurt and offended certain less competative and less talented players on our team. She's the one on the team that is loudest with wanting things her way and has a tendency to bitch about things when they aren't her way. WELL...me being me, wearing my heart on my sleeve, trying to please everyone, I have a tendency to try to be the buffer, to smooth things over so that she is happy. This year, I lost two really great players, who I have had on my team since day one of starting Crush, because they wanted to play on a team that they were just able to have fun on, that they didn't have to pussy foot around B. And they didn't like how she treated then. Well, again me being me, I thought, these girls don't want to stick around and play with my team, that is totally okay, I will stay loyal to B, 'cause at least she wants to be here. Well, fast forward to about 2 weeks ago, when I gave B her new uniform for the year. They are cooler then t-shirts, girls style softball jerseys. For the past two years running B has bitched about the softball shirts being t-shirts and how "HOT" they were, so I thought getting cool thin underarmor type jerseys would be a welcome change...Yeah, well, first thing out of her mouth is a bitch, about how it's a girls cut shirt, and how it's going to be to small, and how everyone is going to hate them. I didn't engage and just said, it's the uniform, I have a bigger one if you want to trade...or you can not wear it and not play, your choice, and walked away...I don't want to go into all the gory details, but for the past 2 weeks it's been a bone of contention, last week I didn't even get spoken to by B during the game at all. That makes for a fun team atmosphere. Well, tonight we get to the game, and like I said before tonight is when we have to have our uniforms on. Knowing full well she is doing it to piss me off, as she goes to walk up to hit and doesn't have her jersey on, I say again, "B, you need to wear your uniform or choose not to play" She got angry and said she would wear her sweatshirt. I said that was fine, and I am not sure why, but I assume that because I wasn't engaging in her immaturity, she got mad so she forced her gf to give her her super extra big shirt to wear. I again mentioned having a bigger jersey if she wanted it and she just walked away from me. Well, that put her gf in a position to have a jersey that she could not fit over her boobs, which looked rediculous, and as far as I was concerned didn't represent our sponsor very well, who paid $550 for us to play this season...After she started running the bases she realized the jersey was too big so she practically took it off, just wearing it on her shoulders...it was just immature and completely to piss me off! So after the inning was over I walked up and said to her "B, you can wear your jersey or not play...you pick" very matter of fact, I felt like I was talking to a 5 year old that was trying to manipulate to get their way. She told me to F-off and that she quit. I said "that's your choice" and turned and asked our sub to step in and play for her. She procceeded to attempt to engage with me and other players on the team for the next hour, stiring up controversy in the stands from what I was told. She kept saying she was leaving and then just never left, she was throwing a fit, and I was a little embarrased for her.
Over the past 3 weeks, I am not saying that I handled myself completely appropriatly, but it's rec level softball for crying out loud. We have a team uniform and all we have to do is wear it for one hour a week for a few months out of the year. Honestly, is it worth this much controversy and conflict??? After the game she continue to try to engage, and ended up getting my goat. She pulled me in and I even cried from frustration, I hate when I let my emotions come out like that, but sometimes I can't help it, I wear my heart on my sleeve and the past month has been so emotional anyway, it's just been the straw on the camels back.

I just don't get it...why do people have to be so unwilling to make adjustments for the better of the whole? Why do some instead feel that the world owes them something so everyone should bend over backwards for them?
I keep coming back to the same thought the past few days...it's as if this world is filled up with givers and takers, and the takers keep on taking and the givers keep on giving, and no one finds sanity or peace because the takers feel they are owed and the givers don't feel they are worthy to be given back to. It just makes me so sad and cynical the past few days!

It's just been a rough time lately! Thanks for listening...

TTFN

Small observation I need to marinate with...

Tonight, after a great day on the golf course, and an even greater afternoon with friends, in the warm sun (where I got a slight sun burn)...thanks Mer, Sum, and Cam! :)

Patrice and I had another talk. If you don't know me, I will preface that comment with I could talk a dead horse back alive...I mean it, I talk and talk and talk, I really get annoying, I even annoy myself at times! Sorry honey...I will work on that. :)

But anyway...so we were talking and she made an observation that she got out in words and I have been thinking about it ever since. She said that when she gives to me, for instance, cleaning up the dishes after I make dinner...she can tell that it makes me uncomfortable, as if I sit there and feel guilty that she is doing anything for me. And it's true. I never recognized it, I never realized that there are times that when someone is giving me something it makes me uncomfortable...a compliment, a present, whatever...and then I feel guilty as if I don't deserve it or am not worthy of it. What is it about me that does this? What is it about me that gives everything I have to feel the least bit fulfilled? And does it fulfill me or is that when I feel the most empty?

I must sit with this and marinate for the time...

Here is an analogy to ponder over...

Have you ever served a ball into your opponents court, and then not trusted they will follow the rules and hit the ball back to you so you can continue the game, so you jump the net to hit the ball back to yourself?

TTFN
Heidi

Going to make it a good day!

So yesterday was seriously a high stress day. I was able to get the claim in with the insurance agency and an adjuster will come out and assess the damage tomorrow! Keep your fingers cross that it all works out.

I worked until 6:00pm, through all the circus acts of our Grand Opening. It was a chaotic day, and for those that know me, I am not really good with chaos! I like things structured and organized. So needless to say I was exhausted by the time my head hit the pillow last night.

But...at 7:30am, without an alarm, my body and mind were ready for the day, so I got up, got showered, made a tee time, and decided today was going to be the first day of the rest of my life! I am going golfing with friends, and then this afternoon Mer, Sum, and Cam invited us to get together for a long awaited hang out day at the park. I am really looking forward to that...

I haven't seen my friend Ky in it seems like years! I am feeling a little withdrawls from not having one on one with her, so we have tentatively planned to get together for some Heidi Ky time. I am really looking forward to that too!

I wish you all a wonderfully sunny and warm Sunday! My favorite day of the week...and I hope your day is as great as I know mine is bound to be.

TTFN
Heidi

My jacked up rear end...

Got your attention did I? Tee hee...so, yeah, just when you think it can't get any worse, someone or something out there puts one more weight on your shoulders to see just how much a person can handle! Today was just any old day, I worked as usual, it was a chaotic day at work, but productive. I convinced my co-worker to do the Customs run for me today, so I could get into my 2nd job as quick as possible since this weekend is our GRAND OPENING SALE! U-92 did a radio remote broadcast, we had tons of give-aways, and tomorrow is going to be even bigger and better...SIDE NOTE...for those of you into video game we are having a huge raffle tomorrow to include a Wii and a 4-wheeler, some bed and breakfast giveaways and much much more...$1 a raffle ticket. Come over for the festivities, there will be cotton candy I think, and maybe even some face painting...just a regular old party! The raffle drawing is at about 5:00pm Play N-Trade West Valley (just west of Valley Fair Mall off the 35th (I think) south exit in the Starbucks and Toys R Us strip...

So back to the story...so I leave work, traveling toward the freeway on 12600 south and the traffic starts to slow. I brake, no big deal, we proceed through a light, when I realize that the truck in front of me is stopping very very fast, so I slam on my brakes with a "phew" knowing I will not even come close to hitting him when I glance into my rear view mirror and a Jeep Cherokee is coming in fast and close, I think, "phew" I think she is going to stop in time too...and then BANG BOOM CRASH, I fly forward into the truck in front of me, my sun roof goes flying open, my hat flies off my head (I kid you not) and a water bottle from the back seat comes flying past my right arm. Needless to say, i'm very stiff, I have the impression of a tow hitch in the front bumper of my car, my rear bumper is all jacked up and my hatch back door is dented all in. LAME! but lucky to be safe and not seriously hurt! The girl in the Jeep behind me had to be taken away in an ambulance and the kid in the little Ranger behind her got the crap beat out of him by his airbag. The F-250 that created the domino effect was munched to...so I feel pretty lucky!

After the adrenaline rush I had, I had to get to work, shakey and all I managed to kick ass giving away free shit to kids and parents alike.

But I am now off to get some Advil and Tylenol and hope to have a dream of some wonderful fantasy world!
Come see me tomorrow...I will hook you up! :)
Sleep well...
TTFN
Heid